Horrible horrible day .I screwed up the 200m run .
Cause i give up like so easily ?!
I dont know, but my mind's like saying, "forget it la, peiling you can't make it "
Then there goes it .I'm so so sorry, DUNDEE ! ):
I hate to admit i'm not strong enough in the mind .
I HATEE MYSELF!
I'm sorry, i disappoint YOU . ):Arghh, the whole thing's damn depressing.
Then when they ask me to run for 400m, i'm like so damn
SCARED !
Cause since i did so badly for the previous run, i surely cannot make it for this run too .
Though rachel said " Nevamind, its not your fault, even if you wanna run, you also cant . Cause they already disqualified us because of some other reasons ."
Though everyone was like cheering me, making me happy .
I cant help to blame myself .
Forget about it, saying more of these makes me even depressed .
PEILING*
It really hurts me deep inside .
I'm like feeling so awkward everytime i have to watch YOU talking to him .
As much as i tried to, i really dont know how to face him .
Yet, i got to watch this everytime .
Just let me pretend i cant see anything . Suddenly, I felt like giving up on everything .This feeling reeally sucks to the core .I reeeally can't take it anymore . How much more energy i have left ?I really wanna break down .And i'm like watching so so many unfair things that happened.Yet im helpless, i cant do anything .So many so many troubles, i could only keep this to myself .Me, myself, nobody else .Labels: gone
